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[Jan. 7th, 2007|12:35 am] |
so i had an audition today for the summer governor's school program
the monologue performance was alright, i think the judges liked it. enough so that they asked me to perform as if i were drunk and i had a lot of fun with that.
and then the interview had four questions
1. Why did you choose this piece?
Because Jim is the strong male figure that was absent from T. Williams life. I feel that i can connect with williams in some way because, whether by choice or not, my dad hasnt always been there.
2. If you could do another art form, what would it be? Also, How does your choice relate to theater?
Visual art. It can be bright and vibrant or dull and listless. Exciting and new, or boring and old-fashioned. Violent and exhilarating, or calm and tranquil. Just like any multitude of plays
3. Did you have any instruction as to how to perform this piece?
Not until before the second audition. The piece was suggested by my theater teacher and i made all the choices for the first audition. she didnt give any advice until before the second audition.
4. Only 200 Students will be accepted. What can you bring that is unique?
I really feel that i could bring a sense of leadership to the program. My teacher said that i made a huge leap this year from being a follower to a leader and getting done what needs to get done and i think i could demonstrate that while there.
Then came improv and that was hilarious. I was working with a guy named Samuel from Governor's School. By the way, me martin and wes decided today that gov. school kids think that they are the shit. that bothers me a lot. anyways, we started off "as brothers who have 6 dollars to get mom and dad a present, i want to get them something nice, he doesnt" it was hilarious and we discovered that you can get the entire sherlock holmes series for under 6 bucks. Next we were football players with the same gf and we had to decide who was taking her to homecoming. It ended up with us taking missy and sissy. then the male judge made us stop because i said "they are twins right? double the action" and then he asked if he could get their numbers. i think it was an awesome audition and i really hope i make it |
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[Nov. 20th, 2006|11:05 pm] |
why does it seem that whenever i do something i enjoy, it always fucks up something for someone else?
and me.
i guess im just destined to screw up and cause problems my entire life because i dont learn from past experiences
and then there are people who help me to screw up
but these are the people i love the most because without them my life would be boring
some people...
too bad i can never figure out what i really want |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2006|09:24 pm] |
just like that you came back
didnt gimme time to notice the attack
your flying in me, tearing up the inside
get out, get out, get outside |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 16th, 2006|12:14 am] |
my crush for her came back all at once after tonight
i thought it interesting |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 13th, 2006|11:50 pm] |
so tonight i got stopped by the cops
and i got away without a ticket
it was sweet
and my grades came in and they were good
and i want to go back to vb nowwwwwww
and i am tired of girls playing me
they need to die
and i cant decide what to do with my life |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 4th, 2006|07:59 pm] |
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my weekend sucked hardcore
i had to go to a fucking soccer tournament for my brother because my dad didnt want to leave me by myself. FUCK HIM. he pissed me off so much this weekend. SHUTUP NOAH, STOP IT NOAH, LEAVE ME ALONE NOAH. i dont like him. and i dont like my new step mom either. she pisses me off so much with her fucking OCDness. and she's is too clean and too organized. she reminds of Mrs. Bowhers except that i dont see Kim as one of my moms. and speaking of moms, mine is being very difficult right now. she doesnt want to make a trip up to get me so i can spend a few weeks with my friends. Wes even offered to drive up with her so she wouldnt have to go alone. and my dad tried tellin me about drugs, and he gave me a history of our family, and apparently, almost everyone in my family was destroyed by drugs. it gives me something to look up to. he's trying to change me. he has been trying since he forced me to move up here. i dont like his views and i dont like him. i want out, i want out, I WANT OUT!!!!!!! it just seems so hopeless now. he makes me go to fucking sylvan tutoring, and he's gonna make me go over the summer if my grades arent good enough. and he's making me get a job even though i wont be here for most of the summer. i hate him. i am tired of living with that asshole. i want to go back and live with my mom. i just want to go back |
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[May. 24th, 2006|10:24 pm] |
heres how my future looks
blank. |
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[May. 18th, 2006|07:16 am] |
so me and katie broke up
but i was gonna do today or tomorrow anyways so it doesnt really bother me
plus i know the greatest girl ever
its just too bad she lives so far away
whatever, ill go see her someday |
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[May. 15th, 2006|10:55 pm] |
okay so it might bigger than i thought. there is this girl named haley and shes pretty and smart and funny and beautiful and unbelievable and i could on about her forever. i met her at my nfty-mar spring kallah and ive been thinking about her for a really long time and i started talking to her online and she and i can talk about anything and it doesnt matter cuz i just want to hear her talk and she might not feel the same about me but she is just so great and wonderful and amazing and i want to be with her right now and stay with her and never let her go and never leave
but she isnt my gf which is the problem
so what do i do, go for a girl that probably doesnt like me as much but i have a good chance with if i ever see her, or stay with my gf, who i like and want to be with, but not as much?
i mean, i love my gf and all, but then haley is just...just....wow |
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[May. 15th, 2006|07:11 am] |
okay so this is about a dream i had last night/early this morning and it was really weird:
it started out with me going to meet all of FC at a thespian conference at a mall in nova but it turned out there was no conference
when i got there i was looking for sky for a while and kept asking everyone until someone pointed at him. i went up to a table with three girls and sky and he was high. that disappeared and it turned into me wes john and thomas getting on the bus to gohome, then i remembered that i had to leave with my dad so i had to run to the other side of the mall but i never made it because i got hit by a truck
weird, huh? if there any dream analysts it would be cool to know what it means |
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[May. 13th, 2006|08:52 pm] |
okay so heres whats been goin on lately
sara wants me to grind with her at peabody's this summer, so of course im gonna do that
alyssa and thomas...things were bad, and i think there better so thats great
looking forward to this awesome drug-induced, once in a lifetime expirement
my gf rocks
im homeschooled still, it sucks
i havent gotten laid in a while
im getting better at guitar
i miss dan, and kyle, and sophie, and everyone from nfty but those three the most, oh and haley and bethany
ummmm, 2hour long conversations with sarah at 1100 at night are fun
driving isnt all its cracked up to be
i havent had anything to smoke in a long time (420) so this summer is gonna be a nonstop drugfest unless im with john or sara or keegan or blvd
speaking of blvd, they are letting me do a guest performance for Hava Nagilah, of course, a jewish song for a jewish person
my sister is in town for three weeks
i got some skin numbing stuff for anyone who wants it this summer
i might get my eyebrow pierced
thats kinda it, there are some people i want to call but i dont know if they want to talk to me, maybe ill work up the courage soon
X nigger stole my bike X |
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[May. 10th, 2006|07:40 pm] |
things i learned today:
i love and hate alyssa at the same time (but mostly love)
i dont call people at home because it hurts too much
jesse would be a fun drunk to hang with
this summer is full of drugs
i miss amber and sara and everyone at home
i called jackie "woman" way too much
my sister is home from college
my dad left me at home with my soon-to-be-grandma to go get married in the Cayman Islands
thats all |
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[May. 1st, 2006|08:00 pm] |
grounded for another week
which means until the end of school
plus, i have to go to sylvan to get tested for a math tutor
and i have to be at a library for my homeschooling at 9
i really want to see katie, she makes my life |
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[Apr. 26th, 2006|08:46 pm] |
so i found out that i am
going to be homeschooled for the remainder of the year
have to go to court for a criminal charge
and no one believes me that i wouldnt hurt anyone, the worst i have ever done to anyone is to myself and that was burning my arms with cigs
im so pissed with the whole situation |
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[Apr. 25th, 2006|09:34 pm] |
so here is the story so far
yesterday i was joking around with a girl and i said i was gonna kill her and "get her" with my knife, i went into my backpack to look for a knifelike object. i found a pocketknife i had had in there since i moved. when i was moving i just threw shit in my bags and forgot about it and didnt bother taking it out since i didnt know of its existence in there. so today she tells the vice principal. he comes and gets me and now i am in a lot of trouble.
i get:
10 days OSS
Possible Expulsion by the School Board
Grounded for a month
No car for a while (not specified how long)
During the 10 days i still have to work and wake up at a normal time
THIS IS SUCH BULLSHIT
and i have no way out of this. my psychiatrist is trying to talk with some people to get me out of it but it wont work. i know it wont. so what is going to happen?
either:
a. catholic school
b. night school for 365 days (or however long the superintendent says so)
c. school in ohio
d. going to VB to finish school (although that will never happen since my dad is an asshole and wont ever let me leave)
so im screwed and if option b happens i dont get to go to vb this summer or on any other trips i planned to go on. all i can say is i hope that catholic school lets me in |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|09:36 pm] |
okay so here i am after getting home from being the stage manager of A Midsummer's Night Dream, and i hate my life once again.
it made me think about how i used to do nothing but theater, and how my teacher actually wanted to do plays and was there to help me.
and now alyssa says she might be moving to phoenix and that sucks
but i guess thats how things role, also, i am really jealous of BLVD i definetly want to jam with them when they practice, it would be fun. When i am there we can be N.BLVD North Boulevard
i think it would be cool. if and when i get to come back this summer. i really hope i get to come back for a month at least
later days |
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[Mar. 21st, 2006|10:40 pm] |
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so im sitting here at the computer and i was just on myspace
and i was looking at thomas' myspace
and i broke down. i started crying right there.
i thought that since ive been here a while it wouldnt effect me. but it did
i never had a friend like him.
me and him were smokin buddies, we went to back bay with matt simons, we did so much stuff together, stuff that really tells you that this person is your best friend. stuff that shows that you wont forget about this person for your whole life. being away from him is just makin me so fuckin miserable. and the worst part is, i dont even think of my friends from VB unless im on myspace. IM FUCKING DRIFTING AWAY. and i hate it
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
being up here is changing me. im partying way to much. ive been stoned a lot of the time im in school. im not doing theater anymore. im not doing anything i used to. and i hate it.
there isnt one good side to this whole being in WV. i knew it, my friends knew it, my dad knew i wouldnt like it, and yet he still moved me up here against my wishes. i dont think i am ever gonna forgive him for this.
i miss you thomas, with all my heart |
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[Mar. 5th, 2006|10:39 pm] |
okay so im making myself a new livejournal account so its
superjewkool
lame and so like me |
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| life is gettin hard |
[Feb. 21st, 2006|07:15 pm] |
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its true
life keeps gettin harder
never easier, keeps on rollin, movin, flowin, like a river
keep it goin, feel the flow, try to stop time, out you go
gone with the wind, scarlett o'hara, dust in the wind, its time to move on
go to something different something new, something you never done, thats never experienced you
let yourself be everything, let everything be yourself, be at one with me,
dont try to hard, let things happen, try to change your life, it wont happen
things happen for a reason, its not always good, but sometimes you change, just like seasons
fall to winter, summer to spring, turning like the cycle, dont go against the wheel
be like an arrow, fly fast, to a target, hit the bullseye, make a mark, but do it before dark
for everyone to see
try to help those who cant help themselves, do a good deed, get one in return
mr chris applebach, a good friend, there for me, till the end
my rhymes may be corny but im just lettin them flow, letting them go, out of my mind, from the deep recesses, past the abyss where the concious meets the subconcious
into dreamland, come back if you want, believe in whatever, if thats what you want
make the rivers flow with sugar, make the mountains out of fur, its your mind, let it take you where it wants, its just trying to help, dont distress, dont make a mess
we only use a little bit of our brains, too much use would cause a strain
lookin at the computer screen, looking back at my eyes, glaring, so mean
always an angry look on my face, i dont know my place, i dont know where i belong,
yes i do, home in vb, that is where i need to be
with my friends, with my girls, with my guys, with my theater, gettin laid, hangin out, smokin weed,
i try not to let things keep me down, its hard sometimes,
forget that, i dont need worries, just be happy
dont let life make you feel crappy, its too short, have fun, get laid
do what you want, hang with friends, get paid
but make it your own, do what you want, do what you need
to get by, to survive, do what you please
give people a smile, they smile back
its worked for me, thats a fact,
dont doubt me, i dont judge you, unless i have good reason, i consider you a friend
its just a big circle, movin around constantly,
dont fight it, let it take you, you will be happy,
go with the flow, swim with the river,
it may be cold, it may make you shiver,
but dont let that change you, you decide your life, dont cause yourself strife
dont worry, be happy
- Noah Kaplan
shit, i cannot believe i just wrote that, i mean, it sucks so much but wow,
those were the thoughts going through my mind when i was stoned on friday
this week has been going good so far though, i am starting to like it up here, but im not gonna get used to it up here
i dont belong here, but i did meet this sick guitar teacher who i hope will really help me a lot
and i love that picture you put up alyssa it is so cool
<3 for you guys in vb i will be there in a week and 4 days
and call me sometime people please 304 210 4962 |
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